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Isaiah
60:1-6
Arise, shine; for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord has risen upon you. 2For darkness shall cover the earth, and thick darkness the peoples; but the Lord will arise upon you, and his glory will appear over you. 3Nations shall come to your light, and kings to the brightness of your dawn. 4Lift up your eyes and look around; they all gather together, they come to you; your sons shall come from far away, and your daughters shall be carried on their nurses’ arms. 5Then you shall see and be radiant; your heart shall thrill and rejoice, because the abundance of the sea shall be brought to you, the wealth of the nations shall come to you. 6A multitude of camels shall cover you, the young camels of Midian and Ephah; all those from Sheba shall come. They shall bring gold and frankincense, and shall proclaim the praise of the Lord. ********************************************************************************
This
scripture is one of my
favorite passages from Isaiah- I live by it! “Arise! Shine! For you
light has come!” It speaks of a fresh start- another chance- no matter how broken and worn out I feel, God is bringing light and hope! More than one morning I've woken up and thanked God for another sunrise.
The people Isaiah spoke to were worn out, broken, and wanted to go
home. They had previously been stuck in a cycle of trying and failing and
trying and failing until they finally just went their own way. They
became hopeless- thick in darkness… (I can relate!) It’s not difficult to
find yourself in that state- where you are so far into the wilderness that you
can’t see a path anymore; everywhere you turn seems strange- unfamiliar- not
sure even how to get back if you wanted to…
That was Israel. But somehow, God breaks through the darkness and sends a
message to a weary world “Arise! Shine! For your light has come! And the glory
of the Lord has risen upon you!”
And God calls to the people- “Lift up your eyes! Look around! See what God is
capable of- and then you shall see and be radiant!”
It’s as if God is saying “Wake up! Stop trying to do it yourselves! It’s a new
dawn!” And the light of that new dawn is bright enough where the people lost in
their own blackness can begin to find their way back-
To me, this about sums up step one of the twelve steps to recovery. Step
1 is, "Admitting that we are powerless over our addiction; that our lives
have become unmanageable."
Coming to admit anything about ourselves, negative or even positive, is never
an easy process. But coming to admit that we are powerless over something is
even more difficult.
We don’t live in that kind of society; in fact we live in a world that tells us
the exact opposite- that ‘we have the power to do anything, change anything, be
anything!’ We live in America, for crying out loud- land of
opportunity- where the message is: ‘we can have the American Dream if we want
it! And if we just work hard enough, or change our ways, or think positive,
then we can achieve anything. Sure there are those who struggle, even those who
have hit rock bottom, but that’s their fault! They have a choice! What they
need to do is to pick themselves up by their bootstraps and just try harder!
If they're still down, that’s on THEM!’
And I pray that at some time in your life you have known what it’s like to be a
“them”…do you know what I mean when I say, "them?" And I don’t care if it’s alcohol abuse or
drug addiction that you’re dealing with, or an overeating addiction or over
shopping or over consuming; or if you’re trying to stop smoking, or stop
looking at porn, or stop fighting with your spouse or stop hitting your kids…
or just trying to stop gossiping… or stop judging people…
Hell you can be struggling with anything… in fact, you can be living with
someone who has an addiction and that can be just as difficult.
Some of the things we struggle with, of course, we don’t call “addictions,”
just "negative behaviors"… those things that serve as an escape… over and over… but we can
stop if we wanted to… ahem... (What’s that called again? ) And maybe we don’t
go to meetings to talk about them; whether we are too ashamed or too scared or
maybe there is no meeting for being addicted to facebook… yet…
Some of our
addictions are even considered “positive” addictions…. Like working too hard…
or exercising to much… how many of you know someone addicted to achievement?
And I haven’t even mentioned our corporate addictions; meaning, the addictions of
our society in which most if not all of us participate... American addiction to
oil… our dependence on technology… our fear driven addiction to militarism, or
our obsession with imperialism and with being the richest and most powerful
nation in the world… our addiction to our own inflated American ego!
If we are honest, we all struggle with and are addicted to something; and most of us with a
multitude of things. And when we come to that awareness- when we can
admit that about ourselves... that’s when we realize that there actually is no
“them.” “Them” is “us”. And that’s a rough realization, when you realize
you’re a “them.”
So, let's put that hat on... the "them" hat, that up until now,
you have only seen on others. How does it feel?
Between society telling you that you should be stronger, and people
telling you you’re just lazy, and others telling you how you can fix yourself….(pull
yourself up by your bootstraps!) and
then looking in the mirror every morning vowing today will be different, only
to cry into that same mirror later on and affirm that you are a failure… But I will tell you… when that happens, it's
then you realize that this “thing” that you are trying so hard to control, is
not under your control at all- that whatever it is you are trying to manage- is
in fact, unmanageable…and you look for a way out... a map... for a path that
has long disappeared, and feel so lost you have no idea how to get back… It
feels like you are trapped in a prison of thick darkness.
That is why Step 1 is the first step to freedom. It’s not that in
admitting that you can’t handle the problem means you are giving yourself over
to the problem- it’s not giving up and saying, “I’m fat I may as well just live
with it, pass the pasta...” Instead it is a giving up trying to control
it on your own strength… knowing that it’s impossible for you to wish it into
happening, or work at it to happen, or just try harder and it will go
away. Because as we all know, that stuff ends up just breeding more
restriction, more imprisonment.
Admitting we are powerless over our addiction instead, is this: (and this is right off of
the 12step.org website: “I admit to myself that something is seriously wrong in
my life… I do things that I later regret doing and tell myself that I will not
do them again. But I do. I keep on doing them, in spite of my regrets, my
denials, my vows, my cover-ups and my facades. The addiction has become bigger
than I am. The first step is to admit the truth of where I am, that I am really
powerless over this addiction and that I need help.” (from 12step.org)
Sound familiar? It sure does… the Apostle Paul said it this way in chapter 7 of
his letter to the church in Rome: “I do not understand my own actions. For I do
not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate… I can will what is right,
but I cannot do it. For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want
is what I do. Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I that do it, but
sin that dwells within me...who can rescue me from this body of death?”
In other words, Paul was saying that this thing that he struggled with, this
thing he called “sin,” whatever it was- was bigger than he was. This was
an addiction… whatever it was that Paul wanted to stop doing, he was powerless
to do so… And in this admission, Paul (Paul, father of Christianity!) was taking
step one in admitting he was powerless over his addiction
And to me, Paul’s admission of powerlessness screams out “there’s hope” for the
rest of us. Because in finally admitting that this burden was bigger than
he could manage, he was able to put it down, lift up his eyes and reach for
light of the new dawn- he was able to let God be everything God could be in
his life.
Paul got it! He knew that when we
continually try to control anything in our life- and live under the delusion
that it is by our power that we
succeed or fail, we negate the power
of God. We actually block the possibility of wholeness with our own ego!
When we are able to step back and admit that we can’t do it on our own… that is
when we give God room to be God in our lives!
I don’t know what you’re struggling with today. I don’t know what in your
life you’ve tried to get under control by sheer willpower and haven’t been able
to manage. I don’t know how long you’ve dealt with it, or how many times
you’ve tried putting it down. But I do know that the one who is all powerful
sees you, lost, or trapped, in the prison of darkness, and calls out to you. Arise! Shine! For you light has come… and the glory of the Lord has risen upon you!
Arise! Shine! Stop trying to do this yourself! Arise! Shine! lift
up your eyes- look around! No matter how far gone you are, God has sent the light
of a new dawn for you to follow… See what God is capable of- and then you shall
see and be radiant!”
Photo: "Epiphany" Winner 2005 Recovery Arts Festival, Best in Acrylic, Artist's name unknown to me. If you have info on this pic, please contact me so I can give him/her credit.